Phone call

I called you and you were still on the bus going home to QC from Pampanga. 

You said you were on a night shift duty that's why you're still on the road at 11:30 pm (PH time). 

You told me to call back after 30 minutes, your estimated time of arrival at home.

I called back and we had a great conversation - life and lovelife.

You said you and your partner were not in good terms (read: tampuhan) right now.

He actually met you up at Fairview this evening before riding a jeepney going home.

As we went along with our conversation, I instantly felt there's this something in your voice that made me feel like you're in pain inside,

I hope I can help you ease the pain, I know if not because of me, we're both not hurting today,

I know if not because of me, we're still be happy today - I know I've cause you so much emotional trouble and I am really very sorry. I cried again!

I can hear your heart still whispers my name, I know you still love me but who am I to be loved and deserves another shot if I am the same person that have caused you so much pain?
I could hear our conversation went into yearning to see each other again, for whatever reason, in my case, I really really miss you - so bad I wanna pull the date and time just to see your face, touch and feel your arms once again.
If there is one thing I realized on this conversation that is so clear to me - that no matter what questions, whatever reasons, whatever things that had happened, when I asked myself if I still love you - there is no doubt I would answer myself back - absofuckin'lutely YES!

I loved you and God knows how I'm still loving you each and every day.
I'm keeping the faith!
Whatever it is that's in store for both of us in the future,
I believe it's gonna be more awesomer one way or another! I can't wait!

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jay 3/16/11 US PDT