Last March 5, 2011 was supposed to be our 5 years anniversary, also a year since we had our "Enchanted Kingdom anniversary date". But this time, table has been turned and I celebrated our anniversary just by myself because I know you're now in somebody else's arms. You're happy sharing your life and love to another while here I am, still contemplating on what has become the most important part of my entire life. I thought I knew myself very well, I thought I can gather myself and handle and pass through the pain easily. Now I know why it is hard for me to fall in love -
because I know I can only love those people who can hurt me the most.
Until now I am not so sure of myself, I am not sure if I wanted to move on. But what I'm sure of right now is that I don't want to move on because I'm afraid that one day, I will wake-up not feeling anything about you anymore and I don't want that to happen.
I've been throwing myself a lot of unanswerable questions while my heartbeats are yelling the unquestionable answer.
- Why accepting that we're not together anymore is so hard for me?
How can I move on when everything I do and everywhere I look reminds me of you and me being happy together.
I know, it's very hard to accept, but my heart's answer is -
because I STILL LOVE YOU...
Happy Birthday beb! :'(
